Rambling.

• You can fly from Dublin to Chicago with Aer Lingus
• You can fly in a connecting flight from Chicago to Vancouver with United Airlines
• I found my way to Canada on a flight to Belfast from Faro, Portugal with Aer Lingus
• I hope I have the balls to fly 13hrs in total when I'm old enough to settle down
• I should already have tbh. I've flown around 17 hrs in the past to Australia
• I really want to travel when I'm in my twenty somethings
• I hate lounging about on holiday
• I want to get out there, get lost, eat crappy food, get a car and just drive until the sun sets
• I want to do something with my life
• I really want to help people
• I want to go to Kenya and build a house for a family that deserves one because the love that they share is something that Western families just don't. They don't need money to be happy.
• I want to go to Pakistan and somehow, try and help the families that were affected by that awful flood. No one deserves that.
• I want to adopt an Ethiopian orphan because the world is overpopulated as it is. It doesn't need another human spawning. I want to give a child a chance at life it never knew existed.
• I don't know anymore. I know what I want. I know I need to change myself and my life and my habits and just everything. Maybe change is too strong a word. Improve would be a better one. I'm so, so spoilt and I know deep down, that I'm not happy with everything I get because I know its far too much and I know that don't deserve it. 
• I don't want money to make me happy
• Spiritually, I'm at a loss. Christianity is too modernly influenced. 
• I'll find my beliefs somewhere, sometime. I'll find it when I'm happier at a deeper level.
• Right now, I'm happy. I'm happy with my life, where I stand, everything. I just know deep down, that my happiness is shallow and easily broken, easily repaired. 

Right now, I just don't know.

I'm too young to comprehend how I feel right now.

But I'll understand it, someday.