I remember when I was littler, I used to read children's books about animals. I remember how I loved cats and how dogs frightened me. I remember I wanted to be a vet at one stage because there are very few jobs which children see through their rose-tinted eyes. I remember getting a papercut and the teacher sending me to the back of the room to sleep on the bean bag. I remember continuously swapping seats at two desks opposite each other so I could sit next to my best friend, but she didn't want to sit next to me. I remember I used to take all the shit that she put me through back in primary school and I regret being thrown around like that. But I knew that without her, I was alone and there is nothing worse than being unwanted.
I wonder where that innocence went. I'm not sure who I am or why I'm here, but I am and I probably won't ever figure it out.
As for now, I know that:
- My name is Jessica
- I'm fifteen years old
- I live by the sea
- I will have done my GCSE's this time next year
- I don't drink
- I don't smoke
- I don't do drugs
- I don't like being around people who are drunk/smoking/high
- I prefer serenity
- I'm probably very boring
- No one reads this, thank goodness.
In my opinion, I think that sometimes it's good to remind yourself of who you are, no matter how self centered it might seem. Because, if you don't know who you are, how can you expect others to know who you are?
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