I could probably give you a hundred things I could be doing right now.

Why do people try so hard to change themselves? Aha, I probably can't say anything, but I am curious. People dye their hair, cut holes into their skin, inject ink into their arms... My view on things has changed recently. What if I want to be me? People do these things to make them different, but because they all do these things, it makes them all the same. I can be who I want to be and I don't want to be anyone except myself. I'll be me, who goes grey at sixteen, be me with bitten fingernails, and weird purple hair and a half grown out blonde bit. I don't want to be that skinny pretty girl over there. I'd rather be that obese person in the corner who'll die at fifty. 

Because life's too long as it is. God -or whoever it is gave us this life- didn't give us any instructions on how exactly to live life. He didn't tell us to preserve it to the best of our ability, as many people have died for God. God is a murderer. And who said the Devil was the temptation? He tempts people into killing another or the killing of oneself. But God does the exact same thing. So many are tempted into dying and killing for him. So many thing killing and dying for God is grand because they'll go to paradise in the end. 

But what if there is no Paradise? What if there is no heaven? No Hell? Just nothing after life? People are just self absorbed fucks, myself included because if everyone else is a self absorbed bastard, why should I be excluded? We all want to go to Heaven. Some want to go to Heaven so much that they are willing to kill and/or take their own lives to do so. 

And the only people who can tell us can't.

Blogs probably aren't the best place to place religious views, but no one reads this anyway so there is no harm really.

It's summer now. 

I'm being pessimistic again.

Lol.